I started 2017 as I have 2018; about to go abroad and anxiously awaiting for the future to just happen. The only difference now is that I am going abroad for a full semester and I have grown oh so much in the last year.
What Happened in 2017?
2017 brought me to not one but two new continents. It brought me new relationships. I never would’ve seen some of the opportunities I had coming until they were happening. I was truly lucky without always realizing that in the moment.
The end of the year brought some struggles that are hard to admit. My anxiety went from the most manageable it had been to something I had never experienced before. I had some sad, rough days that I cannot explain to this day. Also, I fell in love. I gained some opinions that I was seriously lacking. I learned a lot. I met some amazing new people. All the while I would constantly return to fight with my own thoughts and actions that did not align with what I wanted to be.
2017 may not go down in the history books as a good year, but in my own personal life it was a whole lot of good with just a few sour glimpses here and there.
Onto the Next
That brings me to 2018. I am excited to approach it with simple expectations, but I cannot forget what I learned last year. I cannot get caught up in my head. If my health is of concern, then I need to listen to my body. I can’t let any, dare I say, bad vibes get in my way or knock me down.
2018 had potential to bring me all that I have wanted lately; a peace-of-mind and a path to follow. I just have to give it a chance in the first place so that I am aware enough to see any opportunities in front of me. I cannot be drowning in self pity, no matter how rough things could genuinely get, because I wouldn’t want to regret missing out on everything this year has to offer. I believe that 2017 could have been better if I started that year off with the same idea.
2018 will be in no way perfect, but just the fact that I am finally going abroad at all is a big deal. It feels good to be doing something new and different. I just can’t get caught up in my head.
To be continued.